I want to have an actual conversation with him in the mornings, not hay, I love you, later. I don’t set 7 alarms from 6-7 am for nothing): Especially since I’m sick and don’t go to school till 12.):
Do I bring this on myself, because I blame myself for being to caring and trusting everyone I care about. I wear my heart on my sleeve.
So do I deserve to be treated like I’m not good enough? That I’m not the only one you want? Because I’m beginning to make myself believe it. Why else would someone I love with all my heart lie to me. When I respect every thing he has said, and I am faithful towards him!
And when I confront him about how I feel he makes me feel like it is my fault, and that I am just as bad as him. When I am not. I’m so hurt and heartbroken. After almost 2 years this is what our relationship has came to? I guess it isn’t the same at all no matter how much I try to make it better or back to normal.3 this time I’m just going to say everything and maybe end in goodby. I’m not putting up with this, it has happened one to many times.
